Stress...

Letting stress get the best of me the last few days. It almost cost me a bad midterm and quitting my job. I figured out how to handle it.. I just cried and cried and cried. I felt like all my emotions that I had been bottling up for the past few months just blew the lid off. I could barely think straight and was contemplating a lot of things. I just had enough of life last night. Then I texted my best friend Nicole. She helps me though a lot of my daily struggles and since I met her has been by my side through a lot and been my partner in crime. It sucks that I can't go drive to her house when I am in a bad mood but I know she is always a phone call away. Any ways, she helped me though this most recent struggle and gave me some encouraging words. She always knows how to put me in the best of moods. I fell asleep after I calmed down and when I woke up this morning to take my midterm I felt like a huge weight was lifted off of me. I knew what I had to do on my test and I felt like everything was falling back into place. I guess I always let stress get the best of me and tell myself that next time will be different but I always do the same thing. I wonder how long it will take till I figure it out. So if you take one thing from reading this let it be to just take a deep breath because everything is going to be just fine. You can make it.

XOXO, Jess

Trying this again..

Trying this blogging thing again..
 Well needless to say my life is anything short of fabulous or even remotely sane or un stressful . But I will always make the most of it. I'm giving you a little insite on a day in the life of a city girl in a small town. My life is like a roller coaster and I'm not quite sure when the next drop is coming. Lately I have been really down in the dumps just watching everyone be all happy and excited with where their life is headed, what school they are at and of course their love life. Now I am not the type of girl that is always in a relationship but when I see all my friends happy with a significant other and sharing all the memorable and romantic times they have together.. I get kind of lonely. And when I am home alone on a weekend or weekday even it really hits hard. It doesn't help that this small town of mine is in the middle of nowhere and I can count my friends that are a reasonable driving distance away on one hand.  I am now debating on weather or not I chose the right college to transfer to or much less if I should really be in college.. I have never been a school girl and can assure you I never will be. I really want to drop out and just travel the world trying to make a difference. Even if I am dirt poor knowing that I have made an impact on one persons life would make everything worthwhile. Now let me get a little happy here because I sound like I am writing my death note. I work at a bar that my dad owns and it has gotten me a lot of incredible connections for my future marketing degree and I have met some of the most wonderful people on the face of this planet. Recently I went to one of our waitresses weddings with some great friends of hers that I was well acquainted with from our thursday trivia nights. One couple has a daughter my age and a son who is 24. I had always thought he was kinda cute but getting to know him at the beach with out the stress of work on my back was awesome. Needless to say I left with a crush. He started chatting with me slowly and we have gone on two little date type things. He is so wonderful and I am so happy. I am hoping things go somewhere so wish me luck. I am getting happy again and life couldn't be any better. Always remember no matter how bad or hard things get it can always be a lot worse.. but most of all.. ALWAYS MAKE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING.

Here is one of those 5 friends in driving distance that puts up my crazyness..

XOXO, Jess

Regrets

I have started realizing lately that some "friends" of mine havent been acting friendly. It blows my mind how they sit there and tell me im one of their best friends and then dont even talk to me anymore. Wont even say goodbye to me or give me a hug when they leave. I talked to my mom and two other adult women about this and they think its because im heading off to college and that they are trying to separate themselves so it wont be as sad but honestly they are going to regret pushing me away because quite frankly they are the last people im going to come back to see. I'm going to be the bigger person here. Im going to pretend like nothing is bothering me. I hope you understand when i come back and i dont give YOU a hug you might want to rethink how you treat others. You're still so immature and im better than that.

I'm going to try this again...

Well, it has been a very long time since i last wrote in here and expressed my feelings on life. Lately I have come to realize who my true friends are and who is just there for me when it's convenient for them. First off i want to throw out there a little story.*fades into a memory* About a year and half ago or more not quite sure I was dating this boy for all intensive purposes his name was Bob. Well me and bob were inseparable i absolutely loved him we went to church together and did everything together well anyways i became a little jealous when he kept talking about this girl named Christiana Yeager(She has her own blog 10x better than mine go check it out) from his school who just moved here and how fabulous she was. Well i met her and she was absolutely beautiful and it made me that much more jealous i thought bob was going to fall in love with her. Well i never really liked her till the end of my relationship with bob. Christiana and I became fast friends. We were tighter than tight i told my life to this girl and she never ONCE judged me for anything i ever thought or did. Any who we had a bit of a falling out last summer and tried to rekindle our friendship. Lo and behold thank the good Lord we went to Nicaragua on a mission trip again this summer and we are better than ever. She is such an inspiration to me. She has all this confidence and I wish so much i could be like that. But most of all i can talk to her about anything. She got me to blog a year ago and she is doing it again. I've been having problems with my self esteem and she always tries to bring me up. I say i look fat in an outfit she always tells me how it is. She always tells me how pretty I am and let me tell you it sure puts a smile on my face. I don't know what i would do with out her in my life. I probably wouldn't be where I am today without her i can tell you that. She will be with me in my heart no matter how far apart college puts us. Christiana I couldn't have asked for a better best friend. Anyone who reads this I STRONGLY encourage you to go out and find your own Christiana someone who makes you feel just as important as you really are.

>P.S.: Here is the link to her blog....

http://theladycheetah.blogspot.com/2011/07/when-you-go-out-always-be.html

and the second

Hmm, so i ended up not writing yesterday i was really busy. I baby sat these two precious kids from my church and painted and owned in Monopoly! Then i came to Griffin to visit one of my Best Friends Meg and we had an amazing day! We went to this incredible place called Margo's and gezz, i have never had Humus so amazing! Well were attempting to find food so i shall finish up later!

My first blog

Well hello there my name is Jessie and i wanted to start a blog to express my feeling on life and things going on in the world that are affecting my life. I wanted to start this because of one of my best friends, Christiana Yeager she is amazing. I'm not going to write to much in here because i have lots to do today. In a nutshell I am a senior in High School, I love being Catholic because were crazy (: , I enjoy doing Missionary work it bring me closer to God. I want to be a Missionary when i graduate. So please keep me in your prayers. I have been to Nicaragua twice and what an experience that was, I got to see kids smile and play in running water for the first time in their lives. I have never felt so much joy and happiness, and anyone who was there can attest to that. One thing we were told there was to find our own treasure for the week, i took a rock from the top of the Sera Negro, the volcano we climbed the first day we were there. That was my treasure because i was the last one who made it up there and had someone helping me the whole way. It was very hard for me because I had just gotten over bronchitis so this was an amazing thing i just accomplished! Well the reason we were to find our own treasure was because of this bible verse.

"God's kingdom is like a treasure hidden in a field for years and then accidentally found by a trespasser. The finder is ecstatic- what a find!- and proceeds to sell everything he owns to raise money and buy that field." Matthew 13:44

>I hope you can go out today and find your own treasure!

P.S- That picture i took from the top of the volcano, you can see the crater. This is the amazing work of God.