Regrets

I have started realizing lately that some "friends" of mine havent been acting friendly. It blows my mind how they sit there and tell me im one of their best friends and then dont even talk to me anymore. Wont even say goodbye to me or give me a hug when they leave. I talked to my mom and two other adult women about this and they think its because im heading off to college and that they are trying to separate themselves so it wont be as sad but honestly they are going to regret pushing me away because quite frankly they are the last people im going to come back to see. I'm going to be the bigger person here. Im going to pretend like nothing is bothering me. I hope you understand when i come back and i dont give YOU a hug you might want to rethink how you treat others. You're still so immature and im better than that.

I'm going to try this again...

Well, it has been a very long time since i last wrote in here and expressed my feelings on life. Lately I have come to realize who my true friends are and who is just there for me when it's convenient for them. First off i want to throw out there a little story.*fades into a memory* About a year and half ago or more not quite sure I was dating this boy for all intensive purposes his name was Bob. Well me and bob were inseparable i absolutely loved him we went to church together and did everything together well anyways i became a little jealous when he kept talking about this girl named Christiana Yeager(She has her own blog 10x better than mine go check it out) from his school who just moved here and how fabulous she was. Well i met her and she was absolutely beautiful and it made me that much more jealous i thought bob was going to fall in love with her. Well i never really liked her till the end of my relationship with bob. Christiana and I became fast friends. We were tighter than tight i told my life to this girl and she never ONCE judged me for anything i ever thought or did. Any who we had a bit of a falling out last summer and tried to rekindle our friendship. Lo and behold thank the good Lord we went to Nicaragua on a mission trip again this summer and we are better than ever. She is such an inspiration to me. She has all this confidence and I wish so much i could be like that. But most of all i can talk to her about anything. She got me to blog a year ago and she is doing it again. I've been having problems with my self esteem and she always tries to bring me up. I say i look fat in an outfit she always tells me how it is. She always tells me how pretty I am and let me tell you it sure puts a smile on my face. I don't know what i would do with out her in my life. I probably wouldn't be where I am today without her i can tell you that. She will be with me in my heart no matter how far apart college puts us. Christiana I couldn't have asked for a better best friend. Anyone who reads this I STRONGLY encourage you to go out and find your own Christiana someone who makes you feel just as important as you really are.

>P.S.: Here is the link to her blog....

http://theladycheetah.blogspot.com/2011/07/when-you-go-out-always-be.html